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I watch the city burn, these dreams like ashes float away. Your voice I never heard — only silence. Where were you when our hearts were beating? Where were you? It all crashed down. Never thought that you’d deceive me… where are you now? // Can you stand the pain? How long will you hide your face? How long will you be afraid — are you afraid? Will you play this game? Will you fight or will you walk away? How long will you let it burn? Let it burn, let it burn. // I watch the city burn, these passions slowly smoldering. A lesson never learned, only violence. Is the world just a broken promise? Is your love just a drop of rain? Will we all just burn like fire? Are you still there? Tell me now!

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i got boulders on my shoulders, collar bones begin to crack. there is very little left of me, and it’s never coming back. // we are running out of time, we are running, we are running — but you’re a killer, and i’m your best friend. i think it’s unfair, your situation… you think I’m changing — sorry, I didn’t know i had to stay the same! can we talk about this later? your voice is driving me, driving me insane!

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You know well that I was never ate by a whale; my lies are the dead bird that gives this sad, grim parking lot meaning. I feel like I want to go home... but I am home. And I dream of a kettle drum, booming and wailing, from somewhere far away. And here I will wait by the door like an old dog, hearing the footsteps of all the strangers who are just passing by.

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that’s just something people say when they’re on their last leg and they need someone to say something to help them cope, or someone to say something hopeful — “i hope you’re okay.” that’s just something people say… and if I meant every word that i ever said, you would probably question the life i have led. you would probably think i’m an evil, broken person, and you would be right. […] i’ve never spent a moment loving anyone but you, and maybe that’s just something that people say… but i hope that you know it’s the truth.

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Spiraling down thy majesty -- I beg of thee, have mercy on me! I was just a boy, you see -- I plead of thee, have sympathy for me! See how the serfs work the ground ( see how they fall ! ) And they give it all they've got and they give it all they've got, and you give it all you've got 'til you're down! ( HA HA HA HA ! ) See how the brain plays around - And you fall inside a hole you couldn't see... And you fall inside a hole, inside a - SOMEONE HELP ME understand what's going on inside my mind! Doctor, I can't tell if I'm not me!

[rcsentful]

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed... Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest... Leave out all the rest.

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     It’s no big surprise you turned out this way, when they close their eyes and prayed you would change -- and they cut your hair and sent you away. You stopped by my house the night you escaped. With tears in my eyes, I begged you to stay - you said, “hey man, I love you, but no fucking way!”